This story is quite different from any other story you ever heard of. It is a real story and it somehow captures the wonders and joy of life - along with the nightmares and terrors, all in one solid piece made out of these 2 extremes. The very special thing about it though, is that no one yet has accomplished to separate or even to see clearly the pieces made out of terrors and nightmares from the pieces made out of the wonders and Joys.......because without the one there can be no other. I truly hope that it will be you the one and only woman in my life, who will have the necessary gifts of sight and insights, realism and creative imagination, in order to devote the time it is always required when we want to explore and understand something deep like the 2 worlds in me and which when you finally see both clear in me, that will be the day that you will fall in Love with Life, Will Love yourself and finally will become the matching piece of the missing puzzle, which will slowly bring us closer and together and by that you will give me e the freedom, to finally be able to choose and stay with you in the world of wonders, Joy and endless possibilities for ever, without ever having to return to the dark side!
I don’t think that you are that person/woman - It is statistically a very very low possibility!
But I hope
I m here because I am still living - therefore I Hope!!

I don’t like pretending on this matter, so this must be said as my No1 issue to talk to you about. If there is no physical attraction between a man and a woman but even more importantly if a man and a woman who are together, don’t sustain a very pleasurable sex life with each other and, then their relationship is doomed to fall apart some day. Only by having that thing in common first and before anything else, only if that part is at its best there is a chance that one day, to truly love each other…….and who knows? Maybe love at first sight still exists. I hope so! Maybe you can remind me that Magic can again become a reality for me as it used to be in the older days !!